Crying

Lately I’ve been finding myself crying at weird times.  Our system at work was down for the billers and I found myself crying.  A fellow widow checked up on me today and what happened next, I started crying.

Crying, crying, crying; I am surprise my body can still produce tears.  Then it hit me, his birthday will be coming up soon.  The way these months are going by, it will be here before you know it.  The last twenty-five years I was always celebrating his born day.  Now this will be the first time there will be no celebrating.  No waking up jumping on his back wishing him a happy birthday.  No taking him out to dinner or surprising him with a massage.   He would have been turning fifty-one this year.  I couldn’t help but wonder why things got cut off with us; why did our love story have to end so soon?

 

Psalms 31:9

Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am in distress.  My eye is wasted away from grief, my soul and my body also.

Psalms 6:6

I am weary with my sighing; every night I make my bed swim, I dissolve my couch with my tears.

John 11:35

Jesus wept.

 

What’s beautiful about our God is He understands our deepest grief.  He even knows how it feels to be so overwhelmed with emotion that all He could do was cry.  Even in the midst of such pain as a widow’s grief, it is safe to know our God is right there, stretching out His arms for us to hug him!